the optimal adventure known as my life and the quotes, notes, pictures, and stories of me trying to live it with eyes wide open and looking upwards . . . {Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy... Psalm 34:5}
Just in case you wanted to know some facts that are completely irrelevant to you, let me tell what happened in my life today. Today, on my walk home, a toothless drunk man asked me to make love to him then tried to take my money and follow me home… Luckily, my local laundry man saw him bothering me and called after me to come visit his shop, to which the inebriated man took off faster than butter on a hot griddle! As they say, there’s a first for everything!
Sometimes I find myself walking down the street and I suddenly realize that the road I am walking on is real, that the town I live in is a real place, and that this life that I have is really happening to me. Sometimes this realization it stops me in my tracks and I take a moment to talk myself through it, “This really is my life…” I say. Or “Wow, I am actually living, right now, in a jungle in Ecuador…” Who else can say that?? Not too many I don’t reckon. I have no doubt God brought me here for reasons I don’t even see yet and some I may never fully comprehend.
Soon, I’ll be walking down a different road in a world that is quite different than the one I’m in right now, and I know that road will have its own joys to take in. But for now I’m so glad I live here. I’m so glad that this is my life. This is my real life!
do I even begin to summarize these crazy things called emotions? What do I even know about feelings? Minion, in one of my favorite animated movies of all time, “Megamind”, patented a quote that I use quite often. As if the world was ending he exclaimed, “it’s cold and warm, and dark and light...”
Sometimes that’s how my heart feels. it’s happy and sad and anxious and excited and nervous! It really has no idea what’s going on or why it’s happening. Though these feelings could probably be examined and the blame for them could be placed on various things, who really knows where they come from or why?
Today I hit the 50 day mark. Only 50 days left in the beautiful place I’ve called home for the past 9 months. Only 50 days left with all the young lives I’ve come to adore. Only 50 days to do all the things I haven’t done or accomplished yet… It’s true I’ve spent too much of that time waiting to be elsewhere, and wondering if the end would ever come. But now it’s coming, and its coming quickly. What do I think/feel about that? Honestly, I don’t really know exactly how I feel about that.
I can’t believe the rest of my life is almost starting. In 50 days, I’ll go home to plan a wedding, get MARRIED, move across the country again, start a master’s degree, live in a very small town on a farm (with my new husband), and might live there without getting a job. Most of those things are incomprehensible at this point, let alone all of those things happening at the same time!
So, I guess all I can say is… “Let the adventures begin!”